I don’t think I’ve ever been this sore in my life. I’m literally waddling today. The heating pad & I have been attached at the hip.
This week at CrossFit it was “benchmark” week. Monday was Nancy, Tuesday Fran and the kicker…. Wednesday was Diane.
My traps were feeling quite sore after Fran & Nancy, but handstand pushups are my jam so I knew I had to do Diane, and I knew I had to do it RX. I have never RXed Diane before, but something in my mind was telling me I could. I had a little fire lit inside of me that wasn’t going to die until I complete this WOD.
For those of you that don’t know, this is Diane. That little biotch.
HSPU (Handstand Pushups)
So, Wednesday evening I walked into my box ready to kick some butt. I was SO anxious to start and it felt like our strength portion (15 emom back squats at varying percentages) took lightyears.
Finally it was time for the WOD. I warmed up with a few light deadlifts, and worked my way up to 155. I should probably preface this by saying that my 1RM is 185, so although I can lift 155, I wasn’t sure if I could do it 45 times.
3. 2. 1….
I did the first set of deadlifts in 3 sets of 7, followed by 21 unbroken HSPU’s that I cranked out.
And then I hit a wall.
For the life of me I couldn’t pick the bar up and complete more than 3 deadlifts at a time. Some sets were sets of 3, some were 2. Finally my second round of deadlifts were done. On to the HSPU. I never struggle with these and consider them one of my strongest moves. However, during this second round of Diane I fell on my head multiple times. I wanted to cry.
I was back at the bar. 9 more deadlifts. This has honestly been the first WOD in my life where I thought I was going to break down and cry. Not from the time ticking, not because I was out of breath… because for the first time in my life I wasn’t sure if my body was going to allow me to pick the bar up. I am dead serious when I say that I was not sure if I was going to finish.
I have never not finished a WOD.
My coach noticed me struggling and came and stood by my side during this round. This was the game changer. There is nothing like having your box-mates cheer for you. Absolutely nothing. I turned off my brain and listened to his cues, all the way down to my last 2 hand stand pushups. I no-repped a twice on the last round of HSPU and wanted to punch my coach in the face (mid-WOD anger, nothing personal 🙂 ), but when I finally locked out my arms for the last time and checked the clock to see 7:58 in bright, red numbers, I realized that I had done it.
I had completed Diane. RX.
This wasn’t about my time, it wasn’t about my name on the white board. It wasn’t about what “place” I came in compared to the others working out. It wasn’t about any of that.
This was about me, and what I KNEW that I could do. I struggled. I wanted to cry. I thought that I wasn’t going to finish. BUT I DID.
….and that is what CrossFit is about.